This weekend was loooong, and not really in a good way. This weekend included 3 movies with friends (5 by myself), 2 meals with friends (4 by myself), 2 fights with friends, 1 friend not speaking to me, 4 crying sessions, and more.
Maybe it's because there are less than three weeks of school left, but people are getting weird. I feel like none of my friends like me and I don't like any of them. Why does this always happen?? I really don't know how to go about fixing any of this drama either. Most people say I should give it time and give them some space, but there's not that much time left! I don't want to start Summer with friends that are mad at me!
And why is it always my fault? Am I that horrible and annoying? Would everyone like it more if I was never around? How do I keep losing friends when I'm the one who normally puts in the most effort??
Ok, I know this post is kind of whiney and depressing and I'm sorry about that, but this is what is on my mind right now.
Anyway, I'm gonna try to fix this. Hopefully everything will be back to normal by next weekend! Wish me luck!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
I haven't died (I think)
So obviously I never update this thing, but I swear I'm still alive (although I'm not sure if anyone actually reads this so it probably doesn't matter...)
Anyway, I'm just at work right now, but it's Friday and I'm going home today and I'm skipping my two classes and I'm going out to lunch for Monica's 21st birthday, so I'm pretty happy.
Yesterday I started packing up some of the crap I have accumulated this year since I'm moving out of the dorms in a month (so excited!). It turned into those "I'm cleaning my room but somehow it just keeps getting messier and messier" moments. There are seriously like four boxes and a suitcase on the floor, which is not very big to begin with, and my desk is still a huge mess. I'm not sure how happy my mom is going to be either when she has to help me carry all this crap to the car, but at least it'll save us all some time and energy when I have to move out in June. I feel like I should be sad that this is my last month in a college dorm EVER, but I'm really not. Last year I was kind of sad because all of my friends were moving out of the dorms while I was staying for another year, but now there is nothing holding me to the dorms. I really don't talk to anyone there now, except Amy of course, but I'll see her next year anyway.
Speaking of next year, I am so super excited to live in an apartment! And I'm excited for the most random and stupid things, like having water in my room (or the kitchen), getting to watch tv while I brush my teeth, having actual food to eat and snack on, not having to wear shoes to go to the bathroom and take a shower.
Well I'm off work in about 2 minutes, so I guess this is it for now. I'll try not to wait a year between posts anymore! haha!
<3 Ellen
Anyway, I'm just at work right now, but it's Friday and I'm going home today and I'm skipping my two classes and I'm going out to lunch for Monica's 21st birthday, so I'm pretty happy.
Yesterday I started packing up some of the crap I have accumulated this year since I'm moving out of the dorms in a month (so excited!). It turned into those "I'm cleaning my room but somehow it just keeps getting messier and messier" moments. There are seriously like four boxes and a suitcase on the floor, which is not very big to begin with, and my desk is still a huge mess. I'm not sure how happy my mom is going to be either when she has to help me carry all this crap to the car, but at least it'll save us all some time and energy when I have to move out in June. I feel like I should be sad that this is my last month in a college dorm EVER, but I'm really not. Last year I was kind of sad because all of my friends were moving out of the dorms while I was staying for another year, but now there is nothing holding me to the dorms. I really don't talk to anyone there now, except Amy of course, but I'll see her next year anyway.
Speaking of next year, I am so super excited to live in an apartment! And I'm excited for the most random and stupid things, like having water in my room (or the kitchen), getting to watch tv while I brush my teeth, having actual food to eat and snack on, not having to wear shoes to go to the bathroom and take a shower.
Well I'm off work in about 2 minutes, so I guess this is it for now. I'll try not to wait a year between posts anymore! haha!
<3 Ellen
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